This was my room when I first started camming. See the makeshift light in the corner? π I love and miss these days.. itβs crazy how much has changed from a year and a half ago!
Enter my most favorite time of year β puffy jackets, leggings, warm colors, hot cocoa, mulled spiced wine, soup, boots, cozy blankets, fireplace, long pajamas, etc. etc. etc.
Happy Halloween!! π I hope you guys have a fun night, I wanted so badly to be online with you but Iβm just not able to right now. When I come back online Iβll do a costume night to make up for it :) Lots of hugs to you!!
When I experience an inner transformation, I feel it with every cell in my body. I often donβt realize what is happening right away and the process of acknowledging what is happening (and what I need to make the transformation possible) can sometimes take weeks or months.
It begins with some early signs, usually Iβm feeling βoffβ, inconsistent with my work or passions, tired and lacking energy, emotional or unsettled, all without a logical reason. I often ask myself why β βWhy am I so tired, why do I feel so inconsistent, why do I have no energy?β
Itβs a constant tug and pull with myself. I fight with myself, I push against it, I tread onward making minor changes to myself or my life in an attempt to compensate for whatever might be lacking. But after awhile, when nothing works, I understand that a deeper more profound process needs to occur. One that is not external but very much internal.
Itβs a crystal clear realization.
I seek trustworthy sources like my animal spirit cards, journaling, and talking to the people I trust to help me understand what I need to form my cocoon. It varies, but my needs may include a long break, a couple of weekends away in the forest, a journey of silence, a commitment to daily journaling β and itβs when I discover and embrace what I truly need to complete the transformation that peace washes over me. I donβt resist. I donβt struggle. I donβt fight it.
Itβs always worth it. Despite fear of the unknown of what lies on the other side, I trust my universe that I will emerge stronger.
Iβm back from my trip! Iβve missed you guys so much β₯οΈ I hope you enjoyed all the photos from my Bali collection. Iβve uploaded them all (including more behind the the scenes photos) into albums on my website along with some entries.